All I Can Give, a TWDG Fanfic by lillycaul
Constantly fleeing death in the car he now lives in, Eddie attempts to siphon gas from what he assumes is an abandoned RV. He soon realizes that he’s not the only survivor trying to make it alone in this world, and that giving something, even a little hope, can touch the most hardened of hearts.
Read Chapter 1 here.
I just love the idea of Lilly taking care of Sarah so much
a young woman who was basically infantilized by her father her entire life coming across a sheltered teenage girl and saying to herself “Well, she just needs to see the real world, like I did” but she soon realizes that Sarah is different, Sarah isn’t going to just “see the real world” and rise above her anxieties and her vulnerabilities to become like Lilly
any other time she’d turn a survivor like that away, trying to further her own survival, but the girl mentions her father dying and Lilly can’t help but sympathize with the poor girl
so she takes Sarah under her wing and tries to explain things as gently and patiently as she can to her (and it’s not easy for Lilly Caul to be gentle and patient, especially after being alone in the wilds for almost two years) and she tells Sarah about her own father and how she had to keep going even when he died
Sarah says she’s scared and sad but she wants to live, she wants to keep her father’s memory alive
the two of them grow close and Lilly begins to regard Sarah as sort of the little sister she never had
Sarah clings to Lilly but also wants to learn how to do things on her own
since Lilly has years of training, she’s more than willing to instruct Sarah on how to use various types of weapons and tools to survive
after surviving together for months on end they come to basically regard themselves as sisters (one thing both of them always wanted but never had)
Sarah brings out Lilly’s tender, caring side and Lilly stokes Sarah’s will to live and be strong
together they take care of each other and what Lilly thought was going to be just her looking after a young girl turns into that young girl changing her whole life and giving Lilly a reason to keep going
I replayed Episode 3 today (final decisions run) and it still makes me so sad to play these episodes without Lilly. It’s been SO long, I know, but it still feels so empty without her.
I like to think about what she would think and argue for/against in the events of Season 2. I could see her arguing to stay at Carver’s camp, because she likes order and doesn’t mind following rules as long as it keeps her alive. I don’t think she’d be extremely enthusiastic about it, but I think she’d say something like "It’s safe here. What will we find out there that’s any better than this?”
It’s also the opposite of what Kenny wants, and since they’re pretty much eternal foils of each other, it would’ve made for an interesting divide in the group.
Lilly followed orders from her higher-ups all throughout her career, and also frequently submitted to Larry (and like I’ve said before, she was designed to be the Lilly that ended up serving the Governor, so obviously Telltale created her personality with that in mind), so I don’t think she’d be above kowtowing to Carver’s demands. We know she’s fairly cowardly. I think she’d be sort of like Reggie, so fearful of dying that she would give up her freedom for a chance to avoid it.
I’ve hypothesized before that she would possibly even stay when the rest of the group left. (Or rather, she’d want to stay, until she saw the place going to hell - much like the Motor Inn - and then at the last minute she’d join Clem and the group escaping). She’d be devastated when it fell, and it would crush most of her last remaining hopes of returning order to their chaotic world.
…I just wish we had real stuff to go on here. That we could really see what she’d choose to do in these scenarios. I miss what she brought to the game. I miss her failed attempts at keeping order in the apocalypse, her firm but well-intentioned leadership that came from a place of genuine concern for other lives, her idealism about law and regulations and her hopes of rebuilding the world one tiny stronghold at a time. The game’s just not the same for me without her. :|
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Oh. My. God.
Here it is, in all its “this was my first time writing fanfiction in about 8 years” glory haha
Like I said, there are definitely some things I’d change now, but I’m still pretty proud of it (especially considering it was the first multi-chapter fanfic that I actually completed).
So, yeah, Hit the Road. AKA ‘many chapters of sexual tension, and then a tank’.
one time I was looking through my Psychology textbook and it had this list of aggressive behaviors and I tried not to laugh bc Lilly fits almost all of these
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